What would you do??
So last night Madeline Grace and I were sitting around reading, playing playing peek-a-boo, normal toddler things, when my phone rings. Insert exhausted ::sigh:: here. I know who it is, but do I really want to talk to him? No, I really don't, but I answer despite.
Madeline's Father (though I'm using that term loosely), Chris: "Hey, Babe"
Rachel's thoughts: What am I am a pig?
Rachel's words: "Hey"
Chris: "Can you call me on my mom's phone?"
Rachel's thoughts: Can't we ever have a normal conversation? I know it's long distance, but does it always have to be MY nickel? seriously?
Rachel's words: "What's the number?"
Rachel's thoughts: Why am I so nice?
I call the number, he answers: "Hey, sweetie."
Rachel's thougts: Would it be rude to gag myself right now?
Rachel's words: "What's going on, Chris?"
Chris: "I just had a bad day, Girl. I'm tired of all this bull sh** up here. I just want to be a dad, and be ther for my little girl. You know I want to be there, Girl. You know I do."
Rachel's Thoughts: THEN FREAKING STEP IT UP!!!
Rachel's words: "You already know what you need to do Chris. Just be here for her once. That'd be great..."
Chris: "I want to take her Trick or Treating; I think I should do that as her dad and all. You know. I want to be there I really do."
Rachel's thoughts: You're not taking my little girl anywhere near any of your Halloween goons, sorry.
Rachel's words: "Don't you think that you should meet Madeline before you see her in costume, Chris?"
Chris: "Girl, I want to be there, I do, I just had a really bad day. I got arrested this week."
Rachel's thoughts: Holy cow. Do I even want to know?
Chris: "Here me out, Girl. this is what happen. I get a call at work, right? This guy went to my brother's school and tried to run over my cousin and my brother. I left work, and went to find the guy. I found him. I got in hie face about it. We started yelling. He pulled out a machetti, you know, a big knife, so I hit him."
Rachel's thoughts: I was right, I didn't want to know.
Chris continues: "Then he all calls the cops on me. I got arrested and sent to JAIL, Rache. My mom had to post $1000 to get me out of there."
Rachel's thoughts: Yep. Shouldn't have answered the phone.
Rachel's words: "I don't even know what to say, Chris. What were you thinking?
Chris: "You'd do the same thing, Girl, don't deny."
Rachel's thought: Pretty sure I wouldn't walk up to a violent person who tried to run my family over. Definately not someone with a knife either.
Rachel's words: "No, I don't think I would."
Chris: "The p-I mean- Cop that arrested my a$$ said my lisence was suspended. I didn't know, Rachel. I swear I didn't know. Now I can't even drive to see my baby."
Rachel's thoughts: Ahh, that's to bad.
Rachel's words: "I'm sorry?"
Chris: "No really, Girl. You know I want to be a dad. For Real. I don't want her thinking I'm some scum of the earth white trash."
Rachel's thoughts: Well...
Rachel's words: " I don't know what to tell you. I don't know what you were thinking. You have to think about Madeline first if you want to be a dad. Not how tough you look trying to beat up some mug off the street, Chris. And you can't have this attitude when you show up in court, you know. They'll get you."
Chris: "I know."
Rachel's thoughts: You're not a smart person. I don't think that I really want Maddie around you at all. Pretty sure I don't.
Rachel's words: "What re you going to do now, Chris?"
Chris: "Can you come see me this weekend."
Rachel's thought: Hell no. I'm not wasting my gas on your sorry ass.
Rachel's words: "I don't think that's a great idea Chris. I told you that you have to come here. You're the one that's never seen her."
---This leads to the blame game.---
The convo is ended be:
Chris: "Will you call me to see if I'm out of Jail or not?"
Rachel's thoughts: Do I have to?
Rachel's words: "Do I have to? I mean, How am I going to know if you are or if you're just not answering?"
Chris: "Thanks, call my mom's number she'll know, and I might be here anyway."
Rachel's thoughts: Great... just what I want, another grandma to make me feel guilty.
Rachel's words: "OK"
Chris: "Will you please come here this weekend? Please? I need to see my baby girl."
Rachel's thougts: I think not
Rachel's words: "We'll see, but not if you're in Jail. I will NOT take Maddie there"
Chris: "I know. I wouldn't want you to either. But will you drive here if I'm not."
Rachel's words: "I'll Call you tomorrw."
What would you do? Would you go there? I really don't want to, but I almost feel bad. Almost. But I don't know if I'm just being stubborn or if it's really the right decision. What would you do?
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Day-old Delaware Chickens
9 years ago
3 comments:
Hmm--well, this is hard. I do think that she should meet her. However, I do NOT think it should have to be at his whim..I mean you should not have to just GO when he says COME, ya know? Also, it's been over a year. Why now? Why does he want to see her lately? Not that that really matters, I just wondered. Wow. Hard stuff. I am sure you will make the right choice. In summary, my vote is do a meeting, but at YOUR convience.
That's a hard one b/c yeah, he should see his kid, but no, b/c he's a dick and I know how much you don't care for him. Ass. going after someone like that. Oh yeah, he'd make a great role-model. Sorry I have been bad about keepin in touch although, I do read your journal so I know what's going on. Give me a call sometime or definately stop by if you're in the ville. Love ya! Chelsea
hey, this is really late don't know if you'll even read it but, I would say HELL NO!!! How convenient that he can't drive now. Nope i wouldn't give it another thought. He's living in some other universe, talking about Madeline like that. He doesn't know her, never seen her, there's absolutely no reason for you to go up there. Since your post was forever ago I have no idea if you went lol let me know!
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