I know I just wrote about "Rainbow Resort" being sort of an under the rainbow theme, but today, I am wishing to be Dorothy on my way to OZ, while walking through a truly mystic place confronting the unknown, away with the dull black and white, and hit me with the new and bold. Give me some color and change. I want out of the old dreads and ruts. And I'm not talking about being a mom, that's never boring. Or really work. We started a new computer system today, and I am thoroughly enjoying being caught up to the 21st century here, finally. Really, it's where "love" or the lack there of is concerned (see also http://6yearmed.blogspot.com for more people who are in this same kind of rut).
I haven't really dated anyone since, well, since August of 2003. That's really a long time for me. I have been "casually dating" or "talking" or "hanging out with" a guy that I have known since high school. In fact, we were very serious in HS, and voted "Most Likely to Be A Couple in Ten Years" our senior year. Very ironically, or realistically (whichever way you prefer to phrase it), we broke up about 7 months later and hadn't talked for two years. (That's a long time, folks) We started "talking" again last November, and we still get together for a game of pool now and again. That's it though. It's really just pool. And I think that somewhere in my want-to-be romantic train of thought, I am thinking it would be cute if we were back together, but on this dreary Monday, all I want to do is detest the boy for being himself, and loathe myself for not moving on every time I get the chance. But the problem remains, that I don't really ever get the chance. He's here and now, and I don't want to work and put myself out there for someone new, not that I ever really meet new people at all. I have all my routines to a 'T', and I thought school would open up doors--there are 2 males in my class. Yeah, 2 out of about 22. Neither for me.
See also the link to my poems for more thoughts here... Have a nice day... don't let this bring you down... think happier thoughts...
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2 comments:
Oh Rachel, wow, what a post. Man, the whole sarcastic "spinster" comment really gave everyone something to write about, didn't it. And man, th "most likely to be a couple in ten years"..wow..Lets talk about something happy. LOL..Like kittens
Hmmm, Kittens... I think that's your job with Phoebe (did I spell that right?)... although, my daughter can say kitty pretty clearly now, and when I ask her what a kitty says, she moves her mouth like a little "meeooooww," but nothing comes out. it's cute. (is that happy? LOL :))
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